Spiritual Experiments (por Matias Flury)

NOTA: este libro se publicará en Inglés. Este es un estracto del mismo.

Afternoon meditation was a daily practice, but on this particular Wednesday, something extraordinary happened. I was sitting in lotus position in my room, and suddenly, I was engulfed in darkness my physical body gradually became fragmented, a sort of explosion took place and I started to expand through a bottomless blue sky. The expansion lasted eons, linear time ceased to exist. I had no memory of who or what I was.  My family, friends, house, work, my individual history was completely erased; even my personality as I know it disappeared. The sense of I, got crushed, and I was one with the ether, clear, pure and fresh, a singular expansive reality, free of time and space.

In this analogous non-reality (I call it “non reality” because from that view point this is just a conceptual conglomeration of thoughts that never reach material form and volume) there were no traces of memory, I felt as if for all eternity I had been in that state without a single alteration, or modification, I had no need to experience change, no boredom, no desire, it was a perfect state, omnipotent, blissful, omnipresent, unlimited. I did not monitor this condition but I was it itself, what we know as objectivity and subjectivity did not make  any sense, had no substance and even, it seemed ridiculous.

Suddenly my perception shifted and objectivity became obvious, manifested once again and became palpable. It started with the appearance of a black hole or vortex of pain, where I was observing for the first time in my existence (I said first time due that in that state I had no memory, past or future) something separate from me. Around this vortex the whole galaxy appeared, everything appeared in me, I was the seat for existence to take place.

The whirlpool of pain grew stronger and pervasive, and it started to extract a clear blue ether from my expanded identity. This substance was cloud-like and I became identified with it. In a fraction of a second I forgot the expansive state and the all pervasive awareness. Slowly I was vacuumed, became confused and I mistook this cloudy substance to be Me. This gave me a sense of individuality and separateness and provided me with the leeway to travel as a disconnected entity in the direction of the vortex. It was like traveling through myself, as I was breaking apart.

I felt very strange, hesitant, and a terrifying feeling possessed me as the black vacuuming hole got closer and closer. When I reached my destination, the bewilderment got stronger.As I was absorbed by the powerful vacuum effect of the vortex, I became very elongated and thin, I felt some kind of intense deconstruction, psychotic, paranoid, schizophrenic, many images of earth flashing before me. A deep sadness overwhelmed me, as I was surrounded by walls of tiny red bricks and empty stone streets.  I flew like a spirit through them, in agony, alone, not knowing who or what I was.

The streets became very narrow and curvy, the buildings very high and joined at the top forming a very tall and narrow brick cave with steep hills and sharp curves.

I was traveling here at great speed and had no control and power of decision about my destination, something or someone was choosing and deciding my itinerary...

Ésta esperiencia fue inducida después de un ayuno extensivo de 54 días sólo con agua.

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